In a word - WOW - most effectively unifies mostly everything that has happened since my last Blog Post, and alas, I write to you now from the greatest city in the world, New York. I have always seen myself as a New Yorker. The time never seemed right. Though the move was a long time coming (years in fact), within only 3 week's time, I made an instinctive promise to myself, left a six year career at Disney, uprooted myself from friends, family, life and culture, shipped four 50+ lb boxes cross country, and sold my car within 19 hours of a one-way flight - all for the sake of waking from a dream and deciding to finally live this daily thing we often call, life. "Bold" some may call it. "Foolish" others would add. But as for me, the seemingly gifted "way-maker" - as some have made me out to be - if I had but one word to describe all of this, it would have to be, "deliberate."
You see, dreams are funny things. I've heard that, "a dream is a wish your heart makes" my whole life (literally), and I've also heard that "every great dream begins with a great dreamer." Heck, Kenny G himself said, "maybe I'm a dreamer." The truth is, we dream - all of us dream - we all wish so hard for things to happen, for things be made right, for the right person, place, or thing to come along and sweep us into the best times of our lives. We are all dreamers. We dream big. We dream small. We dream on occasion. We dream nonstop. And still, we are all dreamers.
According to Google, to be "done consciously and intentionally," is to be deliberate. Having a conscious to say, "I need to take a step forward," and intention to say "which way?" is rightfully the impass from Dreamer, to Do-er. Which should (as I'm discovering) eventually lead to Dreamy. I digress....
All this to say simply, that what I've done has been hard. Not even the simplest words, or the most glamorous of Facebook posts can shade the fact that this has been the most challenging, most outrageous, most demanding and most all-of-the-above thing I have done - and I choose to live it still every day. Fortunate in circumstances, I am bound to the deed of "making this work." January 18 will mark my only third month here - hard to believe considering how much I have tread already. I'm blown away, and so thankful everyday for you, the ones who rally around me and say, "yes, we are with you on this." That, my friends, is my prime driver for this madness I have given to myself. To turn around and see the Tweets, and emails, the texts and LIKES that I've gotten, my reaction is that of waking up to do it all better than the day before.
The worst part of any dream, truly, is waking up. You're never really sure what just happened...sometimes you even try to fall back asleep INTO right where you left off (don't tell me you haven't tried)! As routine as waking up is, the spontaneity of "now what?" rules the air. Do you just, get up? Which way do you go? Do you run out to greet someone? Do you make a slow start? Did you forget your shoes? Are you caught up on your Instagrams from overnight?
I really hope by now that you are catching on to this thread I am weaving - the basic principle of taking action. But I write this to you not to just take action, but to wake up to your reality, because this. is. hard. It's too easy to say "it'll be worth it someday," because that's what we are constantly working towards: that "someday." And yes, while that "someday" is coming, be mindful, be challenged, be cautioned, and please be warned, that if you are about to walk into something you are not truly, wholesomely, and indebtedly passionate about, you. will. fail.
Yes, dreams are funny things. I have become deliberate in my dream, and I excite you to do the same.
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